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ORIGINAL: aul

Hello, I'm twnety and going to college, and I met this one Christian girl. I had sworn throughout my life that I would want to marry a nice asian girl, and the only thing that would stop me is if I really did find somebody who clicked with me and who was Christian.

Well, it's mid way through the term. She's got attitude, she's very smart, she's Christian, and she don't put up with BS. Yet, she has a playful and nice personality. As being raised a Christian guy who is around little christianity, I have never ever met a girl that was so togethor and that strong. Yeah, I can tell she's a 'daddy's girl' or whatever and she's not perfect, but I don't care. I talk to her every now an then, I think she likes me, and I wanted to start getting to know her slowly by opening up to her and playing email tag when we're not at college. Oi, it's mid term and I don't want to lose her, but I don't want to push her. I'm not very open with my feelings as I'm a very private guy, but I have a small feeling that's telling me that I met somebody like her at this point of my life for a reason. I will not say I love her, and I can't say I 'like her'. I even find her looks quite nuetral, even though many people say she's gorguoes. Yet, I'm attracted to her somehow and I'm afraid of losing her. Not as a girlfriend, but as a person that I could possibly have a friendship or/and a relationship with.

So my question is, am I totally crazy? For you Christian girls, what do you feel is 'right' for a guy in my position to aspire to. I've been hurt before by girls that I thought would be a soulmate. I'm very scared and confused about my sudden feelings, and it's making me mad for me to lose my cool so easily. It's like, I'm forcing something that's bringing hurtful memories and something that could be potentially a let down from some 'stranger' I don't even know, whom I'm attracted to, all because I have a gut feeling that this person is an important memory for my life.

What do you all think?