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Pat-rebel_lady -> RE: Quitting smoking support thread (5/21/2008 10:47:42 AM)
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ORIGINAL: JimboFletch
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1.) Lack of communication, among brothers and sisters in the Lord, on this subject.
2.) Struggling over disagreement with what has been stated about weight gain.
3.) Anger control; can find nothing in this area.
1. Are you talking about this thread or in general? I've found most of the posts in this thread supportive. (There have been a few other threads about smoking that have down-right nasty.)
2. I'm not sure what you're talking about on weight gain. I picked up about 18 pounds during my quit and have not done very well in losing it. I don't do sugar or processed flour or grains and I consistently and vigorously walk 1 to 5 miles, 5 days a week. I've experimented a lot with what I eat, currently reducing portions. But nicotine played a part in all our weight management before - even if we did not know it.
3. Anger... What can I say, it's a natural part of withdrawal because we feel deprived and our brains are all out of sorts while it is trying to reprogram itself to function normally. I was very aware of the anger aspect and managed to only lose my temper twice during my early quit.
My early quit was complicated by learning a new job in a new field at age 54 after being laid off from a 20-plus year job. My Dad had not long passed away and my MIL was battling breast cancer, a battle she lost about 7 months into my quit. I also went through some painful experiences at church.
The good news is that I am noticeably more mellow than before I quit. I used to be constantly angry driving home but now I shrug off inconveniences and enjoy the trip without a need for a nicotine fix.
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PS - You'd have to gain about 100 pounds to offset the health benefits of quitting nicotine and/or tobacco.
I’m sorry!! When I posted that I was still feeling the powerful craves as my body begged and cried to be fed; the pain, my inability to concentrate or think straight, feelings of great depression, irritability, frustration, restlessness, tremendous anxiety, a foggy mind, beading sweaty forehead, rapid mood swings of emotions, irrational thinking, and angry outbursts. I could no longer see or remember these words:
“Embrace recovery as your wonderful journey home to experience the rich, deep, and tranquil inner calmness that resided inside your mind before climbing aboard the endless nicotine/dopamine/adrenaline lifetime roller-coaster ride of cycling highs and lows. See encountering and reconditioning each crave trigger cue for what it truly is - a highly visible sign of true healing and recovery. Sense the emerging glory that is you and the abundance of oxygen arriving at every living cell in your body. In times of challenge fill your cup with truth, desire and the reasons that caused you to embark upon this quest for freedom . See all thoughts of smoking nicotine, that at times may seem to flood the mind, as golden opportunities to shed honest light on each, while sorting through years of conscious denial in which you made excuses for your chemical addiction that built a safe-house based on lies.”
And it made me even angrier, and more hurt and devastated because I failed yet again; I have spent my whole life running, hiding, and shifting blame for my becoming a ‘smoke-a-holic’; but I’ve also knew the truth too: I’ve done it, and still do it, because I chose to do it as an escape from dealing with conflicts and emotional disturbances, and became captured and enslaved to nicotine instead. I pray you will forgive my outburst of yesterday.
I find I need to get more educational information; do some deep meditation and thoughtful studying (armor supplies), in some areas, before I set a quit date; Just know that I do intend to quit (it's either going to kill me or cure me) --- and I very much covet your prayers.
Pat
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