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LissaJo -> RE: Your Story (6/14/2007 10:50:30 PM)
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wow.. so much! Being that we are sisters, like DOVEFAN, I was raised in church. I grew up having my Dad as Pastor until he became an evagelist when I was 9. We traveled and sang for 8 years, and then he became Pastor at the church we went to. I was 18 then, and no matter what, I never could get the issue of my Salvation "nailed down" so to speak. I always worried about it, never had any peace. You'd think being a preacher's daughter I would know what I needed to do. But instead, I tried to convince myself, my family, and friends, and God (yeah, right) that I was saved. Finally I got to the point that not knowing was literally killing me! I had made several professions of faith as a child, but had never really been saved. I battled it day and night. I couldn't understand it, therefore was making it much harder than it really is. I was literally sick from it. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even smile (literally). I was the picture of misery. Then one Sunday, the choir was singing (yes, I sang in the choir!) a song called "I'm Saved" and the chorus has a line in it that says "I'm Saved without a doubt..." and as soon as I sung that line, it was like I was slapped in the face, and God said, "No, you're not. I've been trying to show you, just like you asked me to, but you won't listen". Honestly, I was almost sick! I hit the altar HARD. No one dealt with me, but they didn't have to! I knew what I needed! I told God I was sick of the uncertainty, and I was tired of running and trying to convince everyone (myself mostly) that I had something I didn't have! I asked him to forgive me of my sin and save me, and HE DID!!!! Now, Satan knows weaknesses, and since has tried to come against me to make me doubt what really happened to me that night, but I KNOW what happened, and I can rest in peace knowing that Jesus saved my soul, and now Satan can't have it! For anyone out there who has battled those doubts, I know where your coming from, I've been there! There's no sweeter thing than knowing that Jesus is in control of the situation, even when it don't seem like it!
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