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Zeeboe -> RE: Sickness in my throat. (5/23/2008 1:10:15 PM)
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Okay, I think it's time to finally post this here. I didn't want to because I'm ashamed, and don't wanna get laughed at...even if you folks are nice and don't do it in front of me. But still, I don't wanna risk it...but I have to. I need to spill my guts and let you guys know the detailed facts about this if you are curious.
I have a personal problem. I know you guys don't know me, and have no reason to offer advice, but I do hope you'll pray.
I'm a very overly sensitive guy who can be easily offended. I also believe I have O. C. D. , only not the common kind. You see, I remember everything in detail and because I'm alone a lot, I spend more time then I should remembering the past. Anyway, I'm a big fan of the Rocky movies, but sadly my older sister did not like the sixth one which is my favorite, and even wrote a negative review about it on her myspace profile. It's funny because she never reviews movies and out of all the movies she had to write a negative review on, it had to be a favorite of mine. I also have this friend who really ripped into Rocky Balboa, and even said he laughed when Rocky cried about Adrian, which at the time I tried to act like it didn't bother me, but it did. A lot. I can't even watch that powerful scene now without thinking about what he said.
I also had a phone conversation with my sister once, and see..it had been a long time since I had seen parts 2-5 and thought they weren't that good, but then I went back and watched them a few weeks ago and forgot how great they were, and felt bad for ever doubting how good they were.
Anyway, all the above events caused me to obsess about them too much, which lead to me having acid reflex. Something I never had before. Now I thought it was because I drank too much orange juice or something, but I decided to stop thinking about Rocky for a few days and make myself not think of it. Well, it worked....but, I recently thought about the Rocky movies again...and the acid in my Adam's apple came back. I only experience this when I think about Rocky, and I have experiencing this right now as I type it.
This has been going on for months now. I've been to the same doctor twice about it, and he tells me to keep taking the meds he gave me. I didn't tell him about what I told you all because I was too embarrassed, but I did hint that I thought maybe it was stress related, and he told me stress can cause this to happen.
So what do I do? I love the Rocky series. I don't want it ruined for me. I don't want to experience this everytime I think or talk about it. I want it back to playing a positive role in my life. So if any of you guys have any serious or helpful advice or know of another board that discusses this kind of stuff, I'd appreciate it. I welcome your prayers too.
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