Originally published Saturday, 11 September 2021.
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too.
Mark 11:25 NLT
Hard and fast I held a grudge
Buried long and deep
Other’s actions I would judge
All my rights to keep
Each wrong plainly recorded
Built a mighty wall
Behind which pain I hoarded
Shrouded in death’s pall
Darkness loomed for many years
My wall blocked all light
I might have drowned from my tears
Despair held me tight
In this wall one day I found
A fair open door
Forgive was etched all around
From top jamb to floor
At this door I lingered long
Pondering my choice
Through it came a lovely song
Made my heart rejoice
I chose right then to walk through
Leave my grudge behind
God refreshed my soul anew
Sweet peace I did find
If my wall, my record stands
With God may truth rest
I’ll forgive and in His hands
Trust His mercy best
Linda L. Kruschke is the author of My Name Is Beloved, winner of the Unpublished Memoir category of the Oregon Christian Writers Cascade Writing Contest, as well as a self-published author of two poetry books. She is a wife, mother, active member of her church, former Bible Study Fellowship leader, and recovering lawyer. She works as the Director of Legal Publications for the Oregon State Bar. But her real passion is sharing God’s healing grace with others, especially those haunted by sexual trauma and abortion. She struggled with major clinical depression for many years, but through the power of forgiveness has become a fearless follower of Christ, living in the assurance of her salvation and God’s love. She blogs at Another Fearless Year and Broken Believers.