Originally published Tuesday, 23 February 2016.
I've noticed, I am the type that reacts:
A person says something slightly offensive. I take it personally.
My friend makes a comment on how I can improve. I feel thrown off.
My husband gives a suggestion. I get sensitive.
I have noticed this internally too:
I mess up. I get angry at myself--even after I have confessed it.
I get far from God. I burden myself with things I must do to get closer.
I get distracted from people and life. I feel that coming back around to them will be hard.
It all comes down to doubt, doesn't it? Doubt that God is good enough to handle my baseline fears. Doubt that God will come through when I can't. Doubt that I really can be better than I am today, right?
Doubt is the undercurrent that drags us away from God.
Doubt is the driver of most dumb moves.
Doubt is the deliverer of the desperate to dealings with the devil.
I know this sounds extreme, but it is true. Push Jesus 5 steps away from your heart and that is a 5-step opportunity for the opponent to rush in to make you question everything.
We tend to believe in this thing called,
"the benefit of the doubt,"
but I think what we really need to believe in is
"the benefit of grace."
That person cuts you off on the road. "She must be having a hard day. God bless her as she drives home."
Benefit of Grace!
That supposed friend ignores you at church. "Perhaps she has her own fears. Maybe I can send her an email and check in."
Benefit of Grace!
That kid again doesn't listen. "Hmm...it is not that they don't respect me, but it's that they want to have a little say. Let me remind them of God's love and his never ending source of power in them a little later."
Benefit of Grace!
That man wants to be a show off and be prideful again. "Maybe he so fears loss of control, he has to overcompensate by having all control. Affirm him."
Benefit of Grace!
I did that thing I didn't want to do. Now, I can't ever let it go. "Jesus already let it go on the cross. He keeps no record of wrongs. He waits for you."
Benefit of Grace!
I am far from God. It is all my fault. I have no idea what to do. "Jesus knows this too; he is not angry with me. He waits and hopes that I can draw near and find his love."
Benefit of Grace!
Finding the benefit of grace, means we finding a wellspring of peace. Discouragement gets covered by the sacrifice of Living Water and we wade in the encouragement that this hope brings.
Grace makes us see perspectives differently.
With grace, we notice:
God works far better than we ever could.
The small thing he's doing, rather than what we're ruining.
We build into relationships, rather than destroy them.
Our hope for the hopeless situation - and a will to continue on.
We notice that mistakes, errors and offenses aren't beacons of our future,
but undercover blessings helping us to forge trust that lasts.
Stepping back means we get to see God's restoration step in, both in our lives and in the life of another.
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