Originally published Sunday, 22 December 2013.
God, listen to me shout, bend an ear to my prayer. When I’m far from anywhere, down to my last gasp, I call out, “Guide me up High Rock Mountain!” Psalm 61:2 (MSG)
I don’t like not knowing what is ahead of me.
I realised this while driving this morning.
A delivery truck pulled in front of me and then braked.
The lane I was in stopped moving and I didn’t know why.
It frustrated me so much. I sat and watched other cars pass me and all I could do was sit and wait for my lane to move. I didn’t know what was holding me up and I couldn’t see past the delivery truck in front of me.
I felt myself getting anxious.
Then I wondered if maybe I was anxious about more than not being able to see what was causing the delay in the traffic.
I start a new job tomorrow. And a few months after that my husband and are planning to move continents. There is a lot of uncertainty in my life at the moment.
I don’t like not knowing what is ahead of me.
I like certainty and control.
In the last few years with my husband’s cancer diagnosis I have had very little of these things.
In fact the one constant in all of this was my job. Now that is changing too and I find myself identifying the phrase in Psalm 61:2 about my heart being overwhelmed.
I remember the prayer David utters right after that,
“Lord, guide me!”
I start praying it. Praying it as I drive behind a big delivery truck.
Lord, guide me.
Praying it as I pick up a few things I need before my new job.
Lord, guide me. (tweet this)
And I’ll be praying it tomorrow as I walk into a new job not knowing what is ahead of me.
Lord, guide me.
I may not know what the future holds but I do know the one who holds the future. And for now, that is enough. (tweet this)
Ponder: What things are you worried about the future? Have you reached the point where you are ready to pray, “Lord, guide me!”?
Prayer: Lord, guide me.
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