When Peace is the Greatest Desire
Rosann Coulon
Today’s Treasure
And Jesus said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” And the blind man said to him, “Rabbi, let me recover my sight.”
Mark 10:51 ESV
I could hear the low rumble of my car’s motor as the cool air from the ac blew strands of hair into my face. The summer heat in the South pushed a band of perspiration across my forehead, and with one swipe of my hand, I pushed back the hair, patted the sweat, and wiped a stray tear from my eye.
The summer of 2019 was a rough season for me as depression sunk deep into my soul. The welcome of new crops to the local farms signaled new life all around me, but I felt like I was slowly dying. I couldn’t contribute this heaviness to just one thing. There was a list of uncertainties consuming me.
That’s why, for the second time on that same Sunday, I drove back to church in hopes of hearing something that would shake me out of the doldrums that I felt locked inside. As my grip tightened around the steering wheel, I whispered the same words again, “Help me, Lord.”
I heard His voice speak to my heart with a clear question, “What do you want me to do for you?”
I was startled into silence for a moment as my mind raced through the list of things that I thought God could do to make my life easier…a financial breakthrough, heal a familial relationship, take away my tendency toward depression and anxiety… on and on the list could go. But sensing the significance of this question, I thoughtfully pondered my answer before coming to a conclusion.
A few minutes passed before tears fell again and a whisper escaped my lips, “Lord, all I want is peace. I want peace in knowing that You are with me in any circumstance––good or bad––peace in knowing that You are in control and that You are working on my behalf.”
I was certain that even if God chose to keep me in the struggle, I could make it if I had His peace deep in my heart.
Recently, I read the healing account of blind Bartimaeus in the gospel of Mark, verse 10:51. Loudly pleading for mercy, Bartimaeus called to Jesus as He passed by. When Jesus heard him, He could not turn him away.
He asked Bartimaeus this same question in Mark 10:21:
…”What do you want me to do for you?” And the blind man said to him, “Rabbi, let me recover my sight.
In studying these scriptures, I realized a similarity between Bartimaeus’ answer and mine. To gain the peace that I was seeking, maybe it was a matter of gaining my sight. Having the ability to see Jesus as bigger than my circumstances, bigger than my emotions, or bigger than any trial that life brings my way––that is what leads to perfect peace.
The difficult circumstances of the hot summer day years ago did not miraculously depart, but the Holy Spirit’s question to me did change my focus. It opened my blind eyes to the Presence of God in my situation.
LIFE-GIVING ENCOURAGEMENT
When the heaviness of our circumstances threatens to weigh us down, let’s turn our
hearts to this truth and remind ourselves that peace is found in knowing who Jesus is––after all, He is the Prince of Peace (Isaiah 9:6), giver of peace (John 14:27), and peace speaker (Matthew 8:23-27).
PRAYER
Father, help me to keep my eyes fixed on You as You fill my heart with peace. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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Help & Hope audio stories produced by MARKINC address some of life's darkest circumstances that are often difficult to discuss yet need to be faced as we help one another walk by faith. These are the real-life testimonies of people who have walked through these experiences and have found their strength in Christ. Listening to these resources is also a way to sure up your foundation for those uninvited moments when your faith is challenged. We hope you will be encouraged and that you will share these stories with others to help them persevere in faith. Listen to the first Help & Hope podcast, a private interview with founders Chuck and Sharon Betters as they talk about the loss of their son, Mark: Loss of a Child
About the Author: Rosann Coulon has experienced disappointment, pain, and loss. Through it all she has learned that God is faithful. Her desire is to spread biblical hope and encouragement to those living in hard seasons. Rosann has written for various online publications, including Hosanna Revival: WHEN blog, TGC, and Just Between Us. Visit Rosann's website at leavingawell.com to receive free encouraging resources. You can also connect with her at instagram.com/rosann_coulon.
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Originally published Wednesday, 04 September 2024.
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